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:)) THIS IS MY FIRST EVER FREAKIN T.G.I.F. OF THIS FREAKIN SCHOOL YEAR! and tomorrow will be my first ever SATURDAY WITHOUT DUTY since june.

I officially regret that day i decided to stop writing on my planner. Ze pages are so empty....:((

pagod na pagod na pagod na pagod na pagod... :((

Only Had 3 divided hours of sleep. Off to school for four hours of NCM lecture and 4 hours of community duty. When i get back home, I still have to work on my pathophysiology, drug study and fix my nursing care plans. WE WAKE UP EVERYDAY HOPING FOR MIRACLES, BUT I THINK ITS BETTER IF WE WAKE UP BECAUSE WE WANT TO BE A MIRACLE FOR OTHERS. good morning :)

Chapter 1, 2, 3 and NCPs done! chapter 4, 5, CM, drug study and pathophysio NOT YET DONE. :((wanna sleep :((

Another night to spend with Individual case study. The goal is to finish at least 3 chapters.

IN EVERYTHING YOU DO, BIG OR SMALL, ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOU JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON GOING.

So i've decided to read and understand these ppts over and over again. It doesn't matter if Ill fail the test tom. Some people pass without even reading due to luck and some people try to study as much as they can but still fail. But none of that matters...just as long as you know for yourself that you studied hard enough then that's all that counts. When you study, never ever think about passing or failing...just think about all those people you can help and heal in the future.

The only problem with multiple choice type of tests is that ALL answers are correct...you gotta choose the BEST nursing intervention. So, memorizing doesn't really help at all, one reading isn't enough, last minute browsing of notes is useless and cramming...cramming wont help you get a passing grade. #80morepptslides

TAG-Pyretics

People dance because dance  can change things. One move, can bring people together. One move, can make you feel like there's something more. One move, can set a whole generation free - Moose, Step Up 2.

On surgery

Today, I circulated in on an orthopaedic surgery and the procedure was called "plating and grafting of left femur." It was one of the most amazing things and probably the most striking and impressive surgery i've ever seen so far. I was inside the operating room for almost five hours but that didn't bother me because the seen in front of me was just pure greatness. I thought ortho cases were boring but I was totally wrong because MAN! EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED INSIDE THAT OR WAS HARD CORE! Makes me want to pursue surgery more. :D

Becoming a surgeon entails a lot of hardwork and time. Things have to be sacrificed and you may lose yourself on the way but the fact that there's something great in the end, that feeling of happiness that scrolls down your spine because you know you've done something good...then it's its all worth the wait. 

It's really fascinating how surgeons could chitchat about basketball games, tell jokes, laugh, and listen to music during procedures...well maybe it just goes to show how they're prepared for what they're about to do and that they already know their art very well. I'm still wondering though if i could make it to that point.  The years of studying - i'm not sure if i can take that :| The errors i might commit scares me... or getting scolded at by residents and consultants..that scares me too. I really don't know what will my job be in the future but I do know that there's only one place where i would like to work and that's the Operating Room. Everything is just simply amazing there :D

p.s. i really do not know the reason as to why head surgeons leave the OR after the surgery and hand over the work of suturing to the interns and residents. I believe, as what nursing has taught me, that we're meant to take care of our patients from the day we handled them until they're completely well. If i were the head surgeon,  I'd want to be with the patient throughout the surgery from the start of incison until the dressing of the site. the interns can do the suturing but id still be there in the OR. I'd want to be the first person to tell the patient that the surgery was a success even if they're not as conscious or even if they couldn't hear me. Even if it takes  hours for the suturing to be finished, i wouldn't mind the wait not because it's my job as a doctor but most importantly because it's my part as a human being - to be humane...to respect patients. I dont want to feel like i'm God in the OR as if i have the total capability of healing people.

I'm not saying though that surgeons are inhumane or anything like that. Surgeons are great people. I'm just saying that it's nicer if medical people would focus more on the core of their job which is - to cure care.

Case, case puro na lang case.

I don't blog as much anymore because i'm too busy with school and grand case. There's no lie when they say third year is going to eat you alive because right now, it's going cannibal on me. Stress is consuming me. I dont even know which to prioritize anymore. I have ward class this coming friday and the group case is due on wednesday. Grand case deadline and defense are  just looming around the corner and we haven't really started it. Individual case is due on saturday. It's midterm next week and not to mention the number of reports, reaction papers and quizzes we have to work on this week. Everything is just piling up and the load is getting heavier and heavier with each passing day. PM shift duty in MMC 6th front and standing for 7 hours isn't helping at all. OH, and we have to make a puppet show for the kids on friday. Of course, that's not a bad thing... i'm actually looking forward to the puppet show (even if i'm not really good with kids) because I know it'll help  and heal my patients. BUT its just that there's so much things to worry about. :(

well, im off now. I just wanted to let that out :)

3 idiots

As students, we should never chase for the ranks. Competition is a silly game that eats us from within. Getting higher grades than our classmates doesn’t prove our intelligence, it doesn’t make us smart. Studying for the sake of getting “uno” isn’t studying at all. That’s pressuring ourselves. We should study for the sake of learning. We might fail at times but the most important thing there is the fact that we've learned a thing or two. Hard work is of course a vital ingredient of being a student but the motivation for that hard work should always be because we want to learn. Motivations should always be good and selfless.  We study not for the sole purpose of proving ourselves better than the others, not because we want to be on top or because we want a display of medals and trophies to brag about to our friends. Rather, we should study because we know we have the potential of gaining knowledge and sharing whatever it is we’ve learned to other people we will meet along the way.

On Trying

GRADES DON'T MATER GRADES DON'T MATTER GRADES DON'T MATTER.

I need something to push me and make myself believe that NUMBERS DO NOT REFLECT WHO I REALLY AM.

 

Thank You, Stranger

A week ago, I stayed at Seattle's Best in greenbelt because I missed their black and white mocha - one of my favorite drinks! People would usually see me holding Starbucks Coffee but if truth be told I Prefer Seattle's Best Coffee (SBC) because their drinks are sweeter than those from other cafes. Anyway, the story is... I was sitting  in one of the tables while reading my OR book when a foreigner ( he's either from UK or USA, not entirely sure), who was sitting on the other table asked me a question.

Stranger: You're studying nursing?

Me: Yes

Stranger: That's a lot of school

Me: Yeah, but four years in college is normal for us here in the Philippines.

Stranger: I see. There are a lot of nurses in our country and they're very good. So, do you plan to go abroad after college?

Me: Depends. But i'll probably stay here for two year to get experience and after that...I don't know

Stranger: Well, that's good. Stay in your country first and serve her.

Me: that's what I wanna do.

Stranger: Good. Anyway, I gotta go now. Thanks for the time. Goodluck with your studies, that's a very noble job so just go on.

It's nice to hear from people that they appreciate the nobility of being a nurse. It's extremely difficult. So that stranger just made my day. The little talk we had gave me the strength and motivation to never give up.